Mar 2019

At the end of the day, you have to try. I know it's so much easier to say than do because you get into that thought process… What if I don’t get in? What if I fail? What if no one accepts me? What if I never find anything? It’s just a loop. The thing is, these are all just “what ifs.” There’s a whole other side to them. What if you do get in? What if you get into the program you wanted to? You have to consider the other side, too.

Although I wish it did, the song didn’t miraculously alleviate all my anxieties about the future; however, this part of the chorus really had me reflect: “Ain’t about how fast I get there / Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side / It’s the climb.” From this song, I realized that I need to start letting go of the expectations I had about what I thought my life would be like after graduation and instead learn from my experiences during my time at Mac by embracing the journey. I never thought a song from the Hannah Montana movie, which funny enough was the first movie I watched in theatres after immigrating to Canada, would resonate with me today just like it did 10 years ago when I was trying to find my identity in middle school, but I guess you never know where you can find inspiration in life!

Although being a doctor has always been a dream of mine, my aspiration is to help people in the most meaningful way I can. The lack of good health is a reality that affects many people in the world, prevents them from reaching their full potential and consequently from contributing to society. I have always loved interacting with people, learning their stories, and doing something to make them happy. I am excited to reach a position where I have the right education and skills to do something more for others and make a positive impact in their daily lives.

Feb 2019

There is a policy in my home university where they hire the top one student in the department as a lecturer after they graduate. I was the top one student in both third and fourth year and was expected to be a lecturer; however, when I graduated, it was the first time in the history of my home university that they decided not to hire the new staff because of decreasing funds. Everyone was shocked because it was like a 100% sure thing and who even thinks of a second plan for a sure thing? It was definitely life changing. I ended up being a lecturer in another university, but my wedding ceremony got delayed for eight months. I needed time to adjust to the new university and environment.

With my plans for life after graduation still up in the air and the extreme cold temperatures last week, I'm am finding it difficult to focus on the present and have instead been staying at home as much as possible daydreaming about the future and warmer weather.